sigh..i got up early cuz i don't want to screw myself up in the waking early dept since i am back on early shifts this weekend. thinking ahead sucks.
erin...can you please call me..i need to talk to you about bear and i keep forgetting to call you except at weird, not great to be calling someone times of the night and day?
also..to the board members...we need to get together to discuss a couple of things so can everyone send me their availability please?
holly has her vet check today...tomorrow is chief, tonka and lizzie.
and mj is away so i need to send out the recent tax receipts so i better do that today...i am starting to feel snowballed by the picky paperwork shit in rescue...it is because we have to start pulling together the end of the year accounting things...this part of rescue always drives me freaking insane.
there are many things currently driving me nutz...too many animals, not enough funds, too many human issues, too many bills accumulating again...too much paperwork that i have too little time (and inclination) to do....and the shop is still a freaking mess.
honestly, life would be so much easier for me if i was just dead.
oh well i suppose i will get there eventually but sadly not yet.
i am one of those people that when i do checkout....everyone can honestly say...she is in a better place. cuz i don't give a shit if there is a rainbow bridge or not..perpetual nothingness and undisturbed eternal sleep sound pretty good too. hopefully i can pass if reincarnation is an option cuz i really do not want to do this again!
can you imagine if god made me come back to learn to do rescue better? holy shit that would totally suck...AGAIN! maybe there will be even MORE paperwork in rescue's future...omg, please don't make me come back!!!!
now that i am done freaking myself out even more first thing this morning..i guess i better get dressed and do some paperwork so i don't have to come back in my next life and do it all over again.