i hauled around several hundred pounds of stuff from point A to point B and back again...long story but basically i just moved crap in and out of my van so i could do the dump run and now have to move it over to its final destination, the barn..... maybe tonight, maybe in the morning. my neck is quite sore, sparkles gave me whip lash last night when i stood between her and the barn. i took some muscle relaxants but they are wearing off again and i am not sure if going to work as a competent nurse tomorrow with or without pain meds on board is a very good idea either way. i might be taking a sick day.
i have this odd feeling that clyde is quietly following me around. i feel him looking at me in perplexity, wondering why he is not really here anymore. i have been pretty good about not crying unless i start talking about him. it is a combination of loss and guilt and i will just have to let it play itself thru.
jewel was an insane moron with a soccor ball in the pond today. she didn't drown and kill herself but no one is ever allowed to toss a ball in the pond when she is around. she is sleeping now, i think she is quite tired.
jed had his vet check, he has put on 4 pounds and his heart rate is down to 140. so we keep him on the baytril, eye and cardiac meds and see how far back he can come.
cuddles the poodle was at the vets too. he was the recipient of clyde's last rage. i didn't want to say anything publically before because i didn't want anyone to not like clyde before he died. cuddles will survive his wounds, he is on antibiotics and colleen just shaved around them for ease of my keeping them clean. he knows i feel really badly that he was hurt.
so today is the first day of carrying on after our world turned upside down. it was a beautiful day out and the animals had fun. and my own regret it just part of the price that all rescuers sometimes pay.