i have a solid lump centered right in the middle of my chest...
Carol · Apr. 12, 2009
and it is because of something said that not only hurt me but made me question my honesty.
it bugs me that at a moment of true celebration for something good happening for the animals of saints with my friends and family...up rears a comment to question, i am not sure which...my integrity or my dreadful memory?
anyway..leila found the old posting for me so i can quit feeling ashamed of a simple joking conversation with my daughter when she called to say she liked the news piece and was proud of me.
and it is time to retire copper's daisy...gone is the innocent smiles it used to bring, now it is just another reminder that even foam and paint and plastic can be used for something other than they were originally meant to be.
and yes i know i am worrying too much about a petty thing...but that is what saints has done to me.
the only thing i really do own anymore is my sense of honor and personal integrity....and they are important to me.