i moved brutus out of the cage today and over into one of the medical room pens. ruby is sleeping in sidneys anyway...she likes it better in there so brutus got her pen which was now empty.
i really should move the felv cats over to the medical room now..there is only the rock, murray, miranda, brianne and mama t left in that big open area with the nice outside and mostly empty run....whereas between the medical room and the holding pen outside the aviary...there are 9 cats without all that much room...plus i could move 3 or 4 more out of the house which would be good for everyone.
but..i just don't want to mess with the felv cats..maybe soon...but not yet. and once that area gets turned over to negative cats...we won't be able to take in felv's anymore.
i am scraping together all of the money we have to get onto the vet bills this week...i thought we owed about 17 thousand but it is actually more like 20...that sucks. i am hoping to pull at least together enough to pay them all down by half, and then i am putting a hold on all vet care except for emergencies or things that can't wait.
which means...we cannot save any more animals for a while...each new incoming costs between 1-2 thousand depending on the shape they are in....if they need bloodwork, xrays, spay/neuters, full dental extractions and tumour removals...on geriatric animals it adds up pretty fast.
so..while we might have the space for a couple of dogs right now....we don't have the money to care for them. maybe if we are careful we can pay everyone off fully in september after our big dinner/auction fundraiser.
i am so tired of 10 years of worrying about cash flow to cover the costs of throwaway animals...and as we get better known...the more animals seem to try to find a way in...today there is an email about a 13 and 15 year old pair of husky's plus a guy stopped up here today to ask about us taking in his friend's dog too...sorry you guys, we haven't the resources to help any of you.
saints is not the answer to anyones prayers...jeez, we cannot even get a decent answer on our own prayers...how the heck can we answer someone elses?
it sucks to live in the real world.
poppy's prospectives never showed up..i wasted the entire afternoon when i should have been hauling feed, waiting for them to arrive. oh well.... like i have all the time in the world to waste....anyway, i watched the book of eli for the 3rd time...getting the feed would have been more productive and eased up my day a bit tomorrow too.
apparently the house phone mailbox is full...maybe i should do something about that tomorrow too.
well i better go track frodo down and get him and the mp building settled for bed.
i have kind of lost my positive outlook...maybe too much head in the clouds optimism eventually turns into a pessimistic earthly mess.
rescue sucks, reality sucks....oh where oh where is the happily ever after?
sigh..that 50 million lottery could go a long way towards happily ever after for a lot of wanna-be saints.
but i won't hold my breath.