i think the problem is..i was not even close to being ready to lose her.
Carol · Jun 28, 2010
tonight i was laying on the bed watching a movie with daphne in my arms and i felt so bad because it was not tyra. i asked god to make this all a bad dream that i could wake up from and write about on the blog..he supposedly can make miracles happen but i already know he is not going to help me with this...she and i are just 2 tiny and inconsequential particles in the great scheme of things.
but then the thought occured....if there is not really a god..then that means there is no heaven either..and that means tyra is gone forever...i always did think the whole rainbow bridge thing was just another made up human fairy tale to help us cope with the loss of our animal friends. but i did have faith that there was something bigger out there....what if there isn't?
hope may float til it sinks, but when it sinks it takes faith right with it.
i did not know this, it totally sucks.
Daphne's Faith-Hopeful Adventure
(By Jenn Hine starring the little determined daxi)
What is that? Hope and Faith have sunk? .... are they in the pond I'll get'em for ya....
Hey furballs ... have you see the FAITH and HOPE?
Woh, here comes something ... it could be it ... I'll get it ....
Nah it wasn't THAT ball ... how about this ball?
Grrrr ... doG dam hope-faith ... argh .... if its not a BALL then what is IT?
Well what exactly is faith and hope? Can I roll in it?
I HOPE its this cookie and I have FAITH you will give it to me
Do only PEOPLE have it? Hey you people, can I have it ... I need it for my Mommy
I personally do not believe in a GOD that can be taught through going to church every Sunday morning. And living with antiquated ideals that someone decided were 'right' and godly.
My God is more the sort that appreciates individuals who are caring, loving and help others. People who spend their lives putting others before them and making a difference. Being happy, appreciating life, love and striving for something they truly believe in.
20 years ago my brother died and I spent a lot of time researching 'life after death'. To me that meant so much more than any religion could. So many stories of individuals dying and seeing the light.. Coming back so positive, so enthused for life and not fearful of what comes after. Has made me a less fearful person and one that is more willing to live each day in the here and now. Not dreading or fearing death.
Not wanting to sound like a zealot at all but so many who have experienced life after death if only for a few moments have come out fearing little. At 44 no religion has afforded me so much. Most ruled by heaven and hell which I can do without. Take some time and google if you can. Might restore your faith in death.
Night.