i think the problem is..i was not even close to being ready to lose her.

tonight i was laying on the bed watching a movie with daphne in my arms and i felt so bad because it was not tyra. i asked god to make this all a bad dream that i could wake up from and write about on the blog..he supposedly can make miracles happen but i already know he is not going to help me with this...she and i are just 2 tiny and inconsequential particles in the great scheme of things.

but then the thought occured....if there is not really a god..then that means there is no heaven either..and that means tyra is gone forever...i always did think the whole rainbow bridge thing was just another made up human fairy tale to help us cope with the loss of our animal friends. but i did have faith that there was something bigger out there....what if there isn't?

hope may float til it sinks, but when it sinks it takes faith right with it.

i did not know this, it totally sucks.

Daphne's Faith-Hopeful Adventure

(By Jenn Hine starring the little determined daxi)

What is that? Hope and Faith have sunk? .... are they in the pond I'll get'em for ya....

I don't see them here ...

Hey furballs ... have you see the FAITH and HOPE?

Woh, here comes something ... it could be it ... I'll get it ....

Nah it wasn't THAT ball ... how about this ball?

Grrrr ... doG dam hope-faith ... argh .... if its not a BALL then what is IT?

Well what exactly is faith and hope? Can I roll in it?

Can I drink it? or lick it?

I HOPE its this cookie and I have FAITH you will give it to me

Is it down low?

or up high?

Do only PEOPLE have it? Hey you people, can I have it ... I need it for my Mommy

Hey Mom, I think maybe we've BOTH got it now ....