i just want to explain something here....
Carol · Mar. 3, 2011
jenn (because she is my daughter and feels safe yanking my chain...) pointed out that i could slow down, be more outgoing and social and chat with folks more. maybe i could...but i probably won't. when there are 130 animals running around, a dozen volunteers, plus folks coming thru on the tours here...my head is pretty full of a lot of stuff going on. when i walk into point B, i am still processing what was happening in point A and thinking about what i still have to remember to do in point C. people should not take my distraction personally.
but i also want to say..that the folks who do well here and come back over and over again..year after year......are the ones who get what they need from caring for the animals...not from me. and what they also have to realize is....there is no elite social club happening here either. none of us socialize outside of saints (unless we are hungry and grabbing a quick lunch)..we not only do not have the time, but we don't have the inclination either. our relationships are built and maintained because of saints, pretty much everything we talk about only has to do with saints.
it is not that i don't want to talk to folks, but i talk best when i have the time to actually just do some mindless task.
here is a perfect example...i like dawn a lot. we arranged last weekend to meet at 11 am and discuss her new adoption coordinator role. sunday was a snow day...we were short handed...dawn showed up at 11 am and she came to the barn and picked up a shovel and talked to me about adoptions while we filled the stalls with clean shavings.
i just don't want people to start imagining that i don't like them because i don't stop to chat..i multi-task here...chatting and goofing around comes while i am mindlessly working...not when i am thinking of a bunch of other stuff, like giving the right dose of insulin to the diabetics or watching how gilbert is moving, or pondering about noelle's sudden need to kick gwen's bossy ass.
so i am putting this out there since jenn pointed it out...don't take my distractions personally..my mind is just busy (or somedays in a total fog.) i know some better than others and over time i will slowly get to know everyone more. and if i sound abrupt when someone asks me something, it is because i am imparting a quick answer to a problem and did not think to take the time to make it sound soft.
there are many ways that i could be a better and nicer person but most of the time i am just too wrapped up in everything happening here all at once, all of the time. everyone else comes and goes from here...but pretty much 24/7 this is where my mind stays....so please don't take me personally, i am just trying to get thru each day without going totally insane.