james bond passed peacefully away at the vets.

the vet said we could try to re-build his potassium levels (they eventually bottom out in end stage kidney disease) but chances are it would be a losing battle. and i could have brought him home and tried the potassium supplements and sc fluids but i was pretty sure that bond did not want his last days to be filled with me shoving meds down his throat and sticking needles into his skin....after 20 years of very strong living, i think he would have wanted a kinder and more dignified end.

hope floats til it sinks...i made the conscious decision to sink bond's hope today. i wanted the peaceful ending for him, i selfishly, did not want to risk an ending for him filled with regret.

i so rarely know the right and wrong answers to things when considering responsible choices when trying for continued quality of life and or settling for a comfortable death.

all i know is i loved him and today he passed away peacefully while purring under my hands.

rest in peace james bond, you were a truly great cat.