9 deaths in 6 weeks is brutal on everyone.
Carol · Jul. 3, 2011
you start waiting for the next shoe to drop.
mo has a theory on why we sometimes run into these periods when death becomes a frequent visitor....she thinks when they pass away a door opens to somewhere and the ones close to the end feel the pull towards that open door.
maybe..or maybe it is just coincidence...with so many sick and elderly animals living here, maybe some of their lives just run out close together...their lives will not go on forever..maybe they just end in bunches because their time was just over.
i like mo's theory tho...if there is a door, then it has to go somewhere..right? so maybe our guys are somewhere pretty special..that place of freedom and warm, pure, spiritual light.
it wouldn't surprize me if there was something really interesting behind that door that draws the animals to it in groups. last night i had to shut everyone in really early cuz they were all being doornobs and reacting together to every freaking thing in the world. not only do my neighbors appreciate quiet evenings, but i do too so i got mad at them all and just shut them all in.
hah...group freak out is over...let the group nap time begin.
i can control that kind of group activity by shutting my doors...but that other door is not something that i have any control of..it opens and closes as it determines....i have no say.
i watched "the black swan" last night, i have had it for a while but was not ready to watch it til last night.i found it interesting because it was so clearly about how the lead dancer perceived her world....how she saw her reality.
is that not how we all really are? we perceive our worlds, our ways? if we are positive thinkers we perceive the world positively, negative thinkers see a negative world..throw in a mental illness and the vision becomes even more blurred and unsure..our minds have so much power over every day.
i think that is something that i have learned from rescue..that it is the perception of one's life that determines how happy it can be. and i think animals are easier to convince to be happy than humans are...their wants and needs are simpler.
cash.. the little de-clawed cat that was attacked by a dog over in the school yard last week...is doing really well. what a sweet girl... she is a roller and a tummy rub lover. she wants to feel safe, loved and happy. the swelling on her neck is slowly going down and she is finally eating a bit on her own. now there is a spirit with strength in adversity....de-clawed, lost out in the unfamilar world, beaten and injured by a big dog, in the clinic on iv's and in pain, finally moved into a saints medical room pen...and one week later she purrs and rolls and rubs her head in our hands....she just has to be a positive thinking cat.
i have said it before and i will say it again....we are responsible for how we shape the world around us. i think the black swan, had no choices...her mental illness took over. but the rest of us do have choices we make every day...to be happy or sad, to be cheerful or angry, to be helpful or obstructive, ...to seek out and promote goodness or wallow alone in blaming and dark.
i have all of those days here...lately, with all of the recent deaths...more than enough of the sadness. and in some ways i am a victim of others emotional being...if the animals or the people around me are unhappy...it filters out to me. but...i am responsible for the world i shape around me. and i want saints to be filled with positive energy so i learn to let it go...to work it out....to have my occasional meltdown and freak out so that at the end of the day (or the week!)...i can again perceive the world around me the way i want it to be....full of wonderful elderly and sometimes sick animals who are enjoying living...and full of amazingly generous and kind hearted people who on the whole...(except for the bad days...phoebe!)...actually think positively like me.
hmmm..ok...i think that was a weird post....sorry...but it was a weird and thought provoking movie!