i have to be really careful not to get too attached to those pups. so even tho i will hold them, kiss them and play with them...it will only be in conjunction with providing their care needs. the real reason i pretty much hate puppies? it has to do with the responsibility. all of the animals who come into my care can expect that i will remain responsible for them, for the rest of their lives. puppies lives are for a very long time. most of the pups i loved and placed in the past are reaching upwards now into their senior years and for their entire lives thus far, i have wondered and worried,,,did i get it right in the homes that i placed them in? some i know are fine...like chicklet..every once in awhile i hear from her famly about her. but there are others who have been swallowed up by time and distance and family moves and i don't hear about them anymore and even 10 or 15 years later, they hover around in the back of my mind. since these temporary pups hail from another responsible rescue...i won't need to worry about them which i think is totally good...(as long as i don't fall in love with them cuz the heart makes you responsible even if you don't want to.)
and then there are my guys...frodo, dixie, daphne, phoebe, benny and june (plus all of the ones i have lost in the past.) i can't even explain the difference in how i feel about them in my personal life because i have all of them by actual conscious choice. some of them may have been previous rescues who came here like all of the others cuz there was nowhere else for them. but once i made that personal committment...our relationships became different then with the other rescued animals here. the love of actual family is far different than any other love that there is...i just can't define what the actual difference is.
and then there is ours....the love that is shared...as deep and committed but it has another layer of understanding that it belongs to all of us here....like the special bonds the formed between mo and cole, jelly and KO, lynne and lucas and so many others.
i was telling mo last week that i seriously had considered adopting mystic...i love that dog...inside i feel like her mom and she is my special baby. but thats just how i feel....everyone else here feels the same...mystic is so very special to EVERYONE here. mystic belongs to all of us...everything about her is far too big for just me. the love of mystic is equally shared. and she is not the only one..there are others like squirt who we all share. but i think she is the biggest and for us, the most obvious one, simply because we all loved her knowing we would all suffer her terrible loss together one day.
all of the animals, temporary or permanent are part of the saints family...yours, mine and ours. it is an interesting cross over of relationships..the intensely personal and the shared feelings of the entire group.
KO and jenn also adore my daphne and daphne adores both of them right back again, tammy and phoebe have always had a truly special bond, and lynne even after taking copper home, had to still share my love for him. benny and carly have a bond that existed before me. squirt and mystic are special to all of us here..each of us fell in love with them equally.
hah!...but i think i am the only one who truly loves dixie...cuz dixie thinks EVERYONE (including me)...totally sucks...she only loves back the other cats like tang, mango and sunny...dixie may well be the only one here that loves not a single human...which is ok too. it is what makes dixie even more special to me.