holly is here and in looking at her, i am sort of pissed off.
hard to tell who she is or where she is in her head right now cuz she is currently stoned on torb.
but the impression i get is, she is a strip mined dog.
you are probably wondering, what the heck is that??
well..think of a strip mine.. bare and barren piles of used up and worthless dirt..every single thing of value has been systematically stripped out of it. what is left holds nothing at all, it can't even grow anything any more. and so it sits..still part of the earth but empty of anything even resembling earth.
nicole said she mentally checked out sometime this morning..one more upside down dog lost once again in the black hole of not belonging.
apparently she was adopted not even a year ago but as continued aging brought more changes...her new family couldn't cope with her. this final illness was her final last straw..they could not afford to treat and again she was lost.
so my question is..in her 14 years of life..how many homes has this dog lost and found and lost again before tonight? how many times did holly believe that she finally had found her forever family? how many times did holly hand over her heart only to have it handed back again when her people were done?
i get so tired of seeing strip mined dogs..sucked dry of any faith or hope til they themselves believe they hold no more value then any other used up dirt.
how many times must one heart be broken? how many times must one world be turned upide down?
how many times must an old and sweet dog find herself in a shelter?
i am so sorry for her.