i look at a dog like oden, and i wonder...what did you not ever have in your life that you need so badly?
he is like a ghost dog..i will go looking for him and i can't find him..i wander back and forth between the kitchen and computer room and i don't see him. and then i think this is ridiculous..of course he is here and suddenly i will see him curled up on a bed somewhere, tucked almost but not quite out of view.
and other times, suddenly he is silently at my feet, gazing at me in longing, i reach down to touch him and the next thing i know he is up on my lap, trying to sink deep inside me. and i think about him and i wonder..what is it that you need so badly? have you loved and lost? or have you never felt loved? what makes you so full of longing inside that you have to so desperately share it with me?
what have you come from oden? where have you been?
i see the desperation..but where is the joy?..why does your amazing capacity to love... hurt you?