the vet said fergie wasn't having fun any more and he was pretty sure even tho we couldn't see it on xray that fergus had some kind of cancer behind everything. he had lost half of his body weight since early this year and despite upping his feeding to two full cans of high energy gastro twice a day in the last couple of weeks, he still managed to lose another three pounds that he couldn't afford to be losing.
i knew it was coming..i cried on the way in and i cried on the way home cuz for some reason i really loved that innocent and sweet dumb-dumb dog. fergie made me feel soft, every time i touched him, every cuddle we had, i could literally feel myself melting like warm wax to be soft and gentle with him..he just did that to me.
once he was gone..i knew it was right..he passed so peacefully and easy like a warm and silent sigh.
fergus came here with baggage...an owner who loved him and then passed away and a whole host of medical issues..messed up eyes, messed up ears, epilepsy and then the whole messed up bowel thing. he has had multiple bloodwork done, many med renewels, surgery and xrays....an almost constant walking medical bill..like a lot of aging bodies....his worn out parts needing lots of various tune ups.
there is one last thing that i must do...send his ashes over to england to be spread with his lady which i agreed to do...i will do this but i am having a hard time with this part. i can't just pop fergie in the mail...it feels so wrong..what if the postal service loses him? i will have to give it some thought on how to safely and respectfully get him there.
he brought us joy every day...to me especially. he was the sweetest little dog who loved balls and toys and cuddling up next to somebody when he finally went to sleep.
i am really going to miss you fergie, i love you little funny buddy and rest well now in peace.
(sorry guys i accidently posted this before it was done..laura and tammy were distracting me.)