i need to put out a warning..i am starting to feel that tightness in my neck and chest, the burning in my stomach...frustration is building and the utter bitch is rising... so please everyone be careful around me for the next little bit.
i see it with the animals...too much going on around them and they become suddenly the center of an anger filled vortex. percy was like that when he was so sick and we kept assaulting him to try to get him well. odie gets like that when there is just too much continuous chaotic activity around him that he needs to try to figure out and process when he cannot see anything.
this is why i am so insistent that the animals have their down time with no one on the property but me...when people are here they get jacked up and over stimulated and they need reliably peace and quiet times to chill out and defuse.
maybe i was really stupid to take on a second job...maybe working 19 out of 21 days was not one of my brighter ideas because even with those 2 days off i don't get to chill and relax. i just try to load everything that saints needs me to do in those two days. but regardless whether it makes me bitchy or a hag to be around...there is not enough money coming in here right now and this was the one thing that i could do to bring in a bit more.
anyway..these next couple of weeks are going to be the worst cuz i am working 11 days in a row and any kindness, niceness, flexibility or patience i have, i am hoarding exclusively for the animals.
i can feel my hidden tiger feeling frustrated, overwhelmed and beginning to restlessly chew on her leash. please you guys, so i don't hurt anyone's feelings...be careful, follow the saints few rules to the letter and try not to bug me.
i can be meaner and more unpedictable than odie when i get overwhelmed.