it is done.
fletcher passed peacefully away. he was not afraid. i am sure i will need to reguritate this horrible day over and over but not now.
odie is home. the vet said there was quite a bit of damage done. he has two sutured wounds and a drain in his belly and some minor teeth scrapes on his back and back legs. he is still quite sedated and thank god he is sleeping because he cried every time i turned or hit a bump on the way home from the vets.
they used dissolvable sutures even tho the risk of infection is greater but he is so hard to do anythng with that the dissolvables are safer. he has to go back in in 5 days for the drain removal tho and i am not looking forward to that since he already bit me a good one at the vets today. he is on antibiotics and pain meds and when he wakes up i will try to get a cone on his head...we'll see how that goes.
this is probably the most horrible day in rescue for me. i have never euth'd a six month old puppy for aggression before. and odie's being injured just makes it all so much worse.
but the bottom line today is...fletcher i love you and i am so sorry that i just don't have in me what you needed.
Oh Carol, I wish I had some magical words that would make you feel better about this. It's just an awful place to be and there's no help for it.
Somehow, time and again, you find the strength to make the tough choices that most of us would run from. Know that while you made the hardest decision ever, your being there probably saved Odie's life. God bless you for being you.