she was doing really well today so the staff moved her back to the mp room. Dionne said just before she left at 5 pm, she noticed brit had started panting, right after she got her pm meds. I got home about 530, just as Dionne came back because she was worried. brit was still panting but I thought it was pretty warm in the mp room. I also thought her belly looked like maybe it was full of fluid but she does have that pot belly look from her cushings disease too. I brought her back to the house to watch her tonight figuring I might have take her in for an emergency check later if she didn't improve when it cooled down a bit. I took the dogs for a quick run, was back in the house within half an hour and Brit was dead.
I honestly think if the meds hadn't helped her stabilize a bit by now, they probably never would. hearts are funny things, sometimes you can bring them back from the edge and sometimes you just can't. what bothers me is until a few days ago, I wasn't the least bit worried about Britney's heart. I worried about her eyes and her cushings disease, I worried that cc was at meal times sometimes snarky with her and I didn't want brit to be upset, so we started to feed her separate.
but I wasn't worried that she would hit an end of life crises and we would be unable to prevent her death.
I didn't start to worry about that until the other day when we suddenly found out her heart was so bad and today with her improvement, I thought we had helped her dodge the impending death bullet.
I was so wrong in that. last night I had decided to take her back into the vet and drop her off on my way into work. this morning I decided I wouldn't, I thought she was better and the meds had kicked in and I thought she would do better if I did not stress her with another vet visit.
round and round we go. should I have? would it have made a difference? maybe? maybe not? I don't know but its too late now.
rest in peace Britney. I will miss giving you belly rubs. I will miss your....I am starving right now!!! I will miss how you always found me when I came in to the room to say hello.
sweet dog. we all loved you and will miss you.