here is what has gone on here in the six weeks since gideons death...
6 deaths..Gideon, classy chick, chewie, liam, mini me and lance...three of those deaths I was responsible for.
12 new animals arrived here..one went out to foster, one has been adopted, two have already passed away.
25 animals had vet visits..not including the ones that had multiple visits like angel and daphne.
we have one to one nursed 7 seriously ill animals over several days...liam, chewie, Passat, orion, max cat, angel, and daph.
both odie and chevy had major, highly stressful surgeries that worried me greatly.
we had absolute heart stopping, mind blowing disasters that rocked me to my knees...a huge betrayal of mine and saints trust, lances attack on Elizabeth and mini me, boomers attack on the classy chick and her death, mini me and lances death, gideons death and daphnes current illness.
the washer died.
the septic crapped out.
we have had plumbers, fencers, septic folks on site messing our routines up. we had had two large groups of visitors 20+ here on two different days.
we have been continually short one fulltime regular staff person and in the process of seeking to hire a replacement for the past several weeks.
there have been 2 major storms and one power outage.
we have taken 2 big financial hits in the past couple of months which is a total loss of somewhere around $14000.00.
we have the usual worries of climbing vet bills and other bills to be paid.
and we have the also usual daily worries and problems of dealing with a shitload of senior and sick animals who sometimes are assholes but still need to find happiness here.
this does not include the myriad of other issues, problems, tasks that need attention every day, nor the guilt I carry daily over Elizabeth, the classy chick, mini me and lance.
this is all just in the past 6 weeks...I am telling you..rescue is NOT for the weak.
and when I list it all out...I am beginning to think it might not be all that great for me either.