it was a shitty night last night...i was worrying about something, angel was restless and not well and jesse got caught between his bed and the wall which necessitated a 3 am full pick me up rescue.
all i could think of for the hours i was awake was how badly i wanted to get up and have a smoke so i could relax and settle myself. starting day 11 of no smoking no cheating...oh big freaking deal..it is not getting easier from my point of view.
whatever.
a sleep in on a day off here is pretty damn hard because the dogs do love their early morning howling chorus..so i am tired and unlikely able to do much about it.
whatever again.
another day, another dollar..hope folks have paid up their amazing raise smoke free pledges because i am SUFFERING here and i ain't doing it for free.
keep it up. we are all
behind you, it is probably the toughest thing you will ever do,
for yourself. Again, you are doing all the
heavy lifting