it was a shitty night last night...i was worrying about something, angel was restless and not well and jesse got caught between his bed and the wall which necessitated a 3 am full pick me up rescue.
all i could think of for the hours i was awake was how badly i wanted to get up and have a smoke so i could relax and settle myself. starting day 11 of no smoking no cheating...oh big freaking deal..it is not getting easier from my point of view.
a sleep in on a day off here is pretty damn hard because the dogs do love their early morning howling chorus..so i am tired and unlikely able to do much about it.
another day, another dollar..hope folks have paid up their amazing raise smoke free pledges because i am SUFFERING here and i ain't doing it for free.
keep it up. we are all
behind you, it is probably the toughest thing you will ever do,
for yourself. Again, you are doing all the