Drowning in a shrinking puddle of resources
Alison · Aug. 22, 2006
Today i am so overwhelmed, I feel the tears hovering on the wings, waiting for one more thing, or even one kind word, to overflow. This might be a good thing since water is in such short supply. And it is the lack of water that is bringing me close to the edge. Ripples in our shrinking pond. Summers are traditionally dry, they are dry of donations and they are dry of rain. The lack of rain and the resulting ripples are making the lack of donations an even greater issue. All of our money is going into the empty well or into hay for the barn. The lack of water has dried out the fields and the grass has died and the field animals still have to eat. They are eating alot of hay. The vets aren't getting paid right now because we have to buy water and hay, they haven't complained but it just adds another guilty worry on top of all the other worries around here.The well is dry again today and the water truck cannot come until tomorrow. We are doing everything we can to conserve our water. Vounteers are taking laundry home, We are recycling floor washing water to clean off the outside cement, i am confining myself to 2 measely showers a week and working every shift I can grab to bring in extra cash. None of it t is working because it just won't rain. Sometimes in order to keep going, and to not get too down, I focus on petty things. Sometimes the petty things can actually be fixed. My petty thing for this week has been dustpans, trying to find them to buy without a broom attached. Good luck. I have been to every store in Mission, and there is not a single, on it's own dustpan to be had. I am not wasting money by buying more brooms either, we have enough of those. So if it would please just rain, or if I could just find a couple of dustpans, we might be able to survive a little bit longer, without me filling the well with tears.