Copper escaped on me tonight, I have been up and down the road and I can't find him. I am worried he may run into coyotes before he decides he has had enough adventure and returns to home. Phoebe upon my return was angry that I left her behind so she flew off the handle at Rocky and now his little feelings are hurt. I was so mad at her that she is sitting out in the yard, quietly watching me at the computer thru the cat run fence. She knows she has upset me, and for once she is silent as she wonders how long it will take for me to forgive. Cole is being pissy, he has been bugging and bullying Tally and Saul as if all of a sudden he has something against white dogs. And tonight, I am not in the mood for any of it.
One of my friends and fellow nurses is finishing her life tonight. Her's was a lifetime of service, caring for others in their time of need. I think doctors and nurses and police officers and firemen and others carry a heavy burden in life. They are the reluctant keepers of our wellbeing. They risk alot in caring for us. The personal and keenly felt burdens of human error, of human fatique, of human caring with superhuman hearts but with frail human minds and bodies. They carry on past the triumphs and the failures and they find their courage in their flawed humanity to provide service to others. Tonight my friend and mentor, will take her last breath on earth and with that breath the earth should sigh at the loss of one more good and pure, courageous heart. There are not enough of those whose lives are spent in service, this world is filling with those who only know self-serve. I don't know how you teach others the true joy in giving, but I do know that when my friend passes, she knows she lived a life worth while.
I guess I better go back out and look for the beagle.
Have a safe and gentle journey my friend.
Carol, be kind and gentle with your own beautiful heart. Nurses do carry a much heavier burden than most, and I think the realities of the ending of life are so much more clear for you and others who have chosen your calling.
Your mentor and friend has earned rest. You have earned some peace, I hope you can find the time to enjoy it.
Yit-gadal v'yit-kadash sh'mey raba, b'alma di v'ra hirutey, vyam-lih mal-hutey b'ha-yey-hon uv'yomey-hon uv'ha-yey d'hol beyt yisrael ba-agala u-vizman kariv, v'imru amen.
Y'hey sh'mey raba m'varah l'alam ul'almey alma-ya.
Yit-barah v'yish-tabah v'yit-pa-ar v'yit-romam v'yit-na-sey v'yit-hadar v'yit-aleh v'yit-halal sh'mey d'kud-sha, b'rih hu, leyla* min kol bir-hata v'shi-rata tush-b'hata v'ne-hemata da-amiran b'alma, v imru amen.
Y'hey sh'lama raba min sh'ma-ya, v'ha-yim aleynu v'al kol yisrael, vimru amen.
Oseh shalom bim-romav, hu ya-aseh shalom aleynu v'al kol yisrael, v'imru amen.