i had dinner with chris and deb last night, that always gets me to thinking. and last night we were talking about me and why i feel such a need to explain things. i don't know. i guess in reality i just like to think out loud.
it is hard having two lives; a full tme professional life and an equal amount of volunteer life, and it is even harder to try to keep the lines between them clear. but in my mind they are seperate and i am working towards truly keeping them seperate in reality too. but i don't just have 2 seperate lives, in reality and in having sanity, i should be having three. the life that i have neglected, is my personal life. i thought that meant vacations and recreation which bore me. but now i realize it is much more than that.
so i was thinking last night about all of this and how a personal life is a life that is yours and belongs to you alone unless you have chosen to share it, which i personally haven't. and you are not accountable to anyone except yourself on how you choose to live it. (with some pretty obvious exceptions, like following the law and not being utterly stupid etc), and OMG you don't have to explain it or justify or rationaize, you can just live it the way that you want to. who cares if anyone else agrees, disagrees, likes, dislikes, understands or misunderstands it either.
so, my chore for myself is to discover my personal life and seperate it out from saints. that oughta give me a headache!
thx deb and chris and good dinner too!