i am afraid to go out to the barn...ellie came out this morning on her knees..she was up on her feet and motoring fine at noon...and i am not sure what she will be doing tonight.
apparently clyde had an "oh shit" moment today. greg came into the kitchen and lokie had clyde pinned to the floor by the throat. sorry, i can't say i am surprized...clyde has been biting lokie in the ass since he arrived. lokie did not hurt him...he would make as good a lead dog as tyra (except he is a bit too patient and should have disciplined the little beast sooner) anyway...i just got home, gee, clyde is quite respectful of lokie. i really like lokie...i wonder if i can borrow him after his folks get home. this is why i like dogs like lokie so much...they believe in natural and fair consequences...bite me in the ass one too many times and my huge gaping mouth will encircle your throat, behave yourself and i will play nice with you. good dog!
clyde is however not good...he escaped from the yard and he was off and running...doornob...anyway, greg, trina, kathy and i rounded him up and herded him back on to the property and into the gate. i was so hoping that VAS would trade me skipper for clyde, deb wrecked it, she told them he was a frankenpup!
sweet pea is in heat again...gawd! save me from reproductive cancer ridden seniors who cannot safely be spayed...how long do heats last anyway? good thing there are no unneutered frail elderly, sex fiend senior males here right now....she would probably give them a coronary..but what a way to go.
we look like we are getting covered for thursday...either kathy or jesse will take care of cleaning the main shelter, greg will do the barn routine...both the am and pm feeding and turn out/put to beds, critical meds and cleaning. tammy is doing the americats and bunnies, nicole will run the dogs and take sweet pea and sissy to the vet for a check, heidi and zoe are coming out to check on and spend time with everyone and trina will come at supper time to let them all out for a pee and give clyde his phenobarb cuz it will be too long between doses by the time i get home and now lynn will be checking on them in the evening.
wow you guys...you are pretty freaking amazing, thank you. i promise i will enjoy my mini vacation and come home all re-newed!
edditted to add...ha ha procrastinate long enough and once in a blue moon a guardian angel will cover stuff for you. by the time i was thinking about sucking it up and heading out to the barn...greg was just coming back in...HE HAD FED AND PUT THEM ALL TO BED! how incredibly kind is that (and ellie was running in the paddock and walked into the barn on all four feet so i was scared for no reason.)
i also want to add how utterly moved i am that so many people are as upset about ellie as i am and how kind they are being to me while i am being a baby about this. i was talking to the nurses today because part of me is afraid that i have caused this by spaying her when we removed that huge hernia. (human bones become weaker and lose calcium with hystectomies and menopause because of decreased progesterone and the DNA of pigs is very similar to humans) so i am afraid i have done this to her by making a really bad decision....anyway...even the nurses are upset that ellie is in trouble (some have met her and fallen under her spell, and others are captivated by the pictures and stories of this very special pig princess)
anyway, they told me they didn't think i hurt her by making that decision...sadly, i don't believe them...i work with wonderful people and they would say that just so i wouldn't feel bad and because my eyes were welling up even in just asking the question. that is the trouble with kind people, they don't want you to be hurt so you can't always believe them.
and here is the part about rescue that most people never get...for each of us that police our own rescue practice...it is never about the things you have done well...it is always about all the ways that you could have done things better. i don't think i should have spayed ellie mae, i think that was a really big mistake...i wish we were allowed to turn back time...i wouldn't spay her now...and maybe her bones would be stronger.