"you are not very good at this, are you mom?"
Carol · Apr. 6, 2008
hmmm. this is about the mother/daughter/spending time together thing.
my daughters were making me dinner tonight, i was supposed to be there at six. i cancelled at 4 cuz clyde has been seizuring this afternoon and i can't leave him. they do understand, this is my life...but even with understanding comes disappointment. sigh, it sometimes sucks to be a mother and a rescuer too.
clyde is pretty beat up. when tammy and i got back from the dump run we noticed some blood specks here and there. i didn't see anything obvious on anyone til clyde started seizuring again. then i knew who to look at more closely and i found the abrasions over his eye and the bloody bitten tongue. poor guy. he has had 4 now that i am aware of. he is quite sedated from the meds to try to get him to stop. i think he might be done now but i am not really sure yet. i won't know for a couple of more hours.
this is going to eventually kill him....either the meds will trash his liver or one day his brain will just fry itself into extinction.
he will be the fourth uncontrollable epileptic i have had...they are just a waiting to happen broken heart. i like animals with minor seizure conditions better...like Cush was...a little seizure here, and little seizure way over there, just not any big deal.
today i am remembering seth, and roo, and murphy. i don't want to add clyde to that list.
i am sorry girls, i am not very good at alot of things but one day i might retire from rescue if i could still come for dinner then, maybe?