it would be nice if it was always happy, it would be nice if it always was clean, it would be nice if it was always honest and respectful but rescue is like the rest of life, it is what it is.
but i am coming to terms with the past couple of weeks....i am ok with cuddles, i am getting to be ok with clyde, i am glad that the drama and angst will soon be settling down.
jewel went all thru the fields with a tennis ball in her mouth. phoebe has been a good little girl for the past few days, jed is putting on weight and gaining strength every day, maude climbed up and had a cuddle with me and squirt shared a 30 minute nap. ellie beat the crap out of the barn doors tonight which she hasn't done much of lately, boots has decided that chewing on all the leashes hanging from the door is a fun thing to do. those are all the good things today that took little effort except to enjoy.
sparky did not end up with a home of her own. her recent stroke and what that means to her future, made her too big of a question mark. IKY, jesse and cody were contenders with someone else but it was a no go for me....too all over the place and indecisive....these are very great dogs and deserve a home that fits. it is critical that a great deal of thought and planning come first, long before the dog. pugsy has had some inquiries lately, we will see if any pan out, she is such a cutie-pie that i know eventually we'll find the right one. these are the things that are easy to accept because to push for a different outcome just puts them at future risk.
the stuff that you struggle with, and it can be countless things.... sometimes you just have to patiently wait things out while taking care of what needs to be done. so i am finally feeling better, not so beat up and raw. i feel like we are doing what we are meant to, what we said we do and doing it pretty well. it may not always be easy, it may not always be nice but i can come to terms with that....it is not like we always get a choice.
i am going to do my laundry tonight, i am going to watch that ron howard documentary "in the shadow of the moon" (i bought it this week) and share my m&m peanuts. i have decided that i want to have faith that man really walked on the moon. maybe i am wrong, maybe my kids are right, but for my life and my peace of mind and all of the things i believe in..... i want to have faith that we really and truly and honestly did this. i don't want to believe in the worst.
so rescue is like the rest of life, you win, you lose, you come to terms and you believe in, what you want to believe in.