and it really does not care if the timing is bad all around.
the day that clyde died i got yelled at because some people apparently work harder than others do and this is not fully appreciated around here. on the day that jeanette dies, the same unhappy person comes to my door and implies by their actions that sometime over the past few weeks the possibility is born that i may be a liar, a cheat, or a thief....altho i was never any of those things before. that would be like me believing that someone is kind and respectful to animals and then suddenly proclaiming them to be abusers just because i happen to be mad at them for something totally unrelated.
it is actually possible to be angry and detest someone and catalog all their faults without making them into something you know is untrue.
today is not a day only to reflect on jeanette's beauty, to worry about percy and watch carl with those newly shorn sheep...it is not just a day to ensure the dogs aren't frightened by thunder and say thank you so much to the ones who helped us get thru today....it is apparently a day for all of those things and the knocking of darkness again on ones door.
and if anyone thinks for a second that rescue is about goodness and rightness, toss that thought right out of your head. rescue is about getting thru really hard days and then getting a 2x4 whack in the head.
sucks to be me.