haven't got a clue.
it is about not enough sleep. it's about visitors from 7 am til 10 pm. it is about phones that also do not sleep.
a ton of guilt, a ton of heartache, a ton of regret and anger and fear.
pain, shame, feeling lost, overwhelmed and completely taken advantage of.
it is about utter unfairness and total abuse...and attempts to take something intangibly pure and dirty it up to match the rest of the world.
and it is about weeping a flood load of tears and battering yourself til you're bloody.
but....
it is also about...
spritely nuzzling your ear, lady licking the air around you, and percy sucking down your ice cold beer.
squirt's belly offered for a gentle rub, tugs looking to see what is in your bowl, charlie meeting you at his door and boo rolling across the floor.
hook as he climbs onto your pillow at night and cuddles as he moves over to give hook a bit more room. oka attacking a 50 pound log, and monty's fascination with sweeping brooms.
jewel carrying a boulder, jed with his head in all the wrong spots. julie's sweet nibbles, sissy's sweet face and molly's pooping connect-the-dots.
it is carrying red's body into the vets and trying to make raymond smile, laughing at maude and then rubbing her face and watching her run the saints pond and field circular mile.
i don't know whatzit's all about, except i know it is all about them... and thatz all there ever is or was or ever will be, forever and ever...amen.