i met my daughter's at the clinic and we surrounded penny, our long time friend as she passed away. my tears as she died were not for her....she had a good life with my family. my tears were to see the tears of my daughters...god this life just freaking sucks.
ty...aka tyler...who yesterday was salvadore, started to multiple seizure today. the staff all took turns sitting with him. i came home and started him on a low dose of phenobarb at noon, he has a vet appointment on saturday.
tunie is not well, the vets came today. they want to draw blood and do a belly tap because of the real possibility of a reproductive cancer but are afraid to sedate her right now. lisa took a stool spec. and i am to get a urine specimen and drop it off to the clinic tomorrow.
simon died at 4:15 as a result of his surgery. run free again simon and i am so very sorry.
there was a note from carrie when i got home that maybe it is time for sunrise to pass as he looks really unwell today. on my way over to check on him, i am thinking, he is not ready yet but when i got there i saw that he is. i will phone the clinic tomorrow and see if we can get a home euth.
17 losses since the end of august and another couple of losses are on their way.
and tonight i sit here as i write this post, i know a couple of things besides that i am tired of feeling so sad.
there are those who "get" this and there are a few reading this that "don't" but think they do and i can hear the things that the "don't's" have to say. i can't do a damn thing about it. this too hugely sucks but why am i supposed to care?
the only good news i have to report is cuddles apparently has a soft tissue injury, not cancer and the empty water tanks just finished getting filled up again.
i am going to run a very hot bath and hopefully i won't let the tears flow too.