tyler seizured twice more and is currently in the post-dictal phase of pacing unseeingly around, bouncing off walls and doors and barriers that i have erected to keep him as safe as i can. i have a headache from worry and stress....i think he has an even bigger one..poor, poor boy. i wish that the valium had stopped his heart last night so he could have just slipped away in his sleep.
i haven't been out to see jess for a couple of hours...i am heading there now.
i don't know what i hope for today for both of them when the vet arrives, except maybe...just some comfort, feeling safe and some way to help them find peace. for me i hope for some kind of concrete resolution...yes we can make them better and this is what we do or no we cannot and so we let them go.
i should have just phoned in sick for today...i think whatever happens, today will continue to be a difficult day to live thru.
i was trying to remember the story of how tyler came to be at saints. i usually do not forget but this one for some reason i cannot remember. if you hae time could you blog it as i would like to know. thanks.