the rock joined the door screamers looking for their dinner last night..he actually ate some of their naturopathic-immune booster laced food...he must have been really hungry.
i checked lahanie ;last night when i got home..all was well. no apparent bad effects from his drugged induced sleepiness yesterday
i made the mistake of watching "the boy in the striped pajamas" last night. i just couldn't sleep afterwards. i was trying to figure out what makes individuals and whole populations of family loving people so utterly mean..is it fear, is it ignorance, is it just something dark and ugly in all of humanity?
i finally decided it was our ability to lie and then make ourselves believe. small lies, big lies...it really doesn't matter...it is our tendency to re-write the past and present and manipulate it to our needs that makes us the darkest and most dangerous and deadly species this planet has ever seen.
anyway, after the movie, i was profoundly disturbed..i was thinking of the small lie protected unkindness with the animals i see, or the massive horrific global atrocities that i read...i felt more than ashamed or sickened...i felt like i just didn't want to be human...i felt being human was dishonest and dirty.
i know there is alot of true goodness is in the world and i know alot of goodness is really just well constructed lies and i know how much just plain mean-ness is cloaked in said or written supposed honesty, but basically is still self-serving human lies.
we lie so much now, we really don't even know what truth is anymore.
why isn't lying illegal? why doesn't the "church" teach that lies will consign us all to hell right here on earth? i think it is because as a species it is basically ingrained in our genes....and lying is just too easy and convenient a way to fulfill our endless needs.
i want to be a dog...intrinsic to their species...complete honesty in what they want and need.