gawd...2 days off and i am still dragging my ass.
Carol · Jan. 1, 2010
i don't know if it is because my days off are really never truly days off...even when i try to fake one...there is always something i absolutely have to do....there are always animals and people around me. even when i have a bath..i squeeze it in between something else. and of course there is no guarantee that my day will actually end..sometimes the day slides into the night and the night slides into the next day and on and on.
but then...this is nothing new...this has been my life for several years now.
maybe i am protein starved again...i eat like shit and then i try not to eat meat too. ever since i saw "the cove" i am not to into eating fish either. a tuna fish sandwich a couple of times a week was my main source of protein. i do need to eat better.
maybe my fibromyalgia is flaring up again..i am really stiff and sore and tired...maybe that is what is wrong with me. but the worst of everything is...i have no energy.
rescue is a great excuse for feeling like shit. i could even milk it and pretend i am like a hero who just does not have time for myself. but the reality is....as far as i am concerned...i am totally lazy..i don't want to cook proper meals, i don't want to go to the doctor...shit... i don't even want to go to the dentist and not only have i had a tooth ache for the past week, but i have a good dental plan that i have not used even once in almost 10 years.
i think the problem is....i am inert.
saints news...there isn't any...no new in...no new out....the sickies who were sick are still sick and the ones who were not are still not. maybe saints right now is inert too.