i feel like absolute crap today because i only had one day off between work day weeks this time around. it puts new meaning to "thank god it is friday"...i am too old for this shit.
maybe i am not crazy at all..maybe i am just tired and bitchy...maybe i am just feeling sorry for myself because life sometimes is hard.
altho, if i were to be honest...what the heck do i have to feel sorry for myself about?....i am not an old homeless incontinent dog with 2 fractures in my pelvis, i am not an ancient blind lost cat starving out in the bush....i am not an elderly person alone with no family or friends, i am not a young human so devastated by illness that i cannot get out of bed.
when you consider the depth of the suffering that goes on around each of us each day...when i consider the courage and grace that walks inside that suffering....i truly should be and am ashamed.
oh well, a few folks are back at me again and probably will be until we all die...i banned them from what was apparently their most favoritest place..like i think bouncers are supposed to be popular and well liked?
i really have got to stop choosing to watch the dart games with my face or back as the target.
honestly....i have nothing better to do?..i know it is only going to piss me off so why do i do it?
sadly it is because i am more like scrappy scarlett ohara than i am like sweet melanie wilkes..i am more like hellboy than i am that glowing good witch of the north with her wisdom and gentle smile....i would so like to be accepting and full of god's best kind of grace....but good luck to me on that one.
but i know i do take care of others quite well....in my own way.
so how do i get past this?... how do i move forward? how do i stop getting myself bogged down all the time?
i am so out of good ideas on that one....except maybe....
thank you KO..the lawns look great around here......thank you again kathy k and samantha the groomees look wonderful again....thank you to everyone, staff, volunteer, supportor and friend for all of the good things that you do for all of us here.
sigh...and now i had better get moving for work.