i am just not so sure anymore.
i know i picked the wrong kind of rescue...i should have stayed miles away from cats, rabbits and farm guys...there are millions of homeless cats and rabbits...good luck finding them homes..and if the cats happen to be 16-20, with health or behavioral issues not even good luck is ever going to be finding them any homes.
the farm guys?...just getting a few of them out of the food chain and away from the slaughter houses is the best you can do.
i could have done better with dogs..if i went for the ones we could re-sell for a couple of hundred dollars or more...but 15 yr old incontinents, senior dogs with tumors, skin, or heart disease, diabetes, arthrititis, blind and deaf....humph...good luck finding homes for them.....plus make sure you are ok for their freaking crazy high vet bills.
some people will say.....
why all the effort...why all the expense to care for these senior and special needs animals?
and i will say right back again...because HUMANS BRED THEM! humans bred them and bought them and sold them and dumped them after every single thing of any value had been used up for whatever it was worth. we sucked these poor ancient animals dry over their entire lifetimes...we took everything we could possibly get and then what? did we stand by and help them at the end?...of course not...we left them somewhere alone to die.
some people will say that saints has it easy...great staff, great volunteers, great supporters too. well i will agree we have these great things but will have to disagree too. these guys vet care is grossly expensive, these guys create 10 times as much work (and laundry) as a young, healthy and continent dog...most of these guys will never find a forever home, so we will be caring for them for the rest of their lives.
there is nothing easy about scraping together the money to pay their bills, there is nothing easy in caring for them every day and there is nothing easy in saying good bye when their lives finally do end here..we love them.
some people will say that human needs and charities must come before animals and maybe that is true...except it was humans that put these animals in need in the first place...they did not get to these unhappy places all on their own.
i am feeling down today...senior and special needs rescue is such a losing battle....never enough money, never enough room...i just never thought there would be so many actually needing rescue.
and yes i am whining again..i think i have that right...i have been here at saints from day one, every day for 6 years, 24/7...that is more than 2000 continual and never ending days of living in the hard life of senior multi-species rescue.
i have weathered the storms, i have handled the sadness, i have put up with the bullcrap and sometimes the utter madness that floats thru the very core..i have not gone under or rolled up in to a beaten ball..i am not bitter or angry or resentful or twisted..i am still honest and caring and working hard to help as many as we possibly can.
but are we getting anywhere? is anything changing? is anything we are doing making it better for all of the rest still out there?
or are they still being bred, bought, sold, and sucked dry by humans before they get dumped?
so is hope floating or sinking for used up and unwanted senior animals?
i don't know any more, but today i feel discouraged like hope has finally sunk.