i watched that streamlined video on line that colleen b recommended "Earthlings"....i cried, i was horrified. i did not realize how naive i am...i knew that commercial farming and the whole slaughter process was inheritently cruel...but i thought it was a sort of beign kind of cruelty...one that is necessary and accepted because of profit/cost margins not one that was so intentional. i just did not realize the horror and absolute brutality of it because of the sadistic ways that some humans choose to behave. i can never again risk some animal i eat or wear...would ever, ever be treated like that. the thought makes me sick inside.
that whole video was one horror after another..animals exploited for.....companions, food, clothing, medical research and entertainment.....a two and a half hour nightmare of the most terrible abuses, all over the world.
anyway..i have been sitting on the fence for a long time..sometimes i eat meat, sometimes i don't but i have never stopped buying dairy, seafood, and leather products...too lazy i guess...i never even once ever tried.
but the combination of the "Earthlings" video following marisa's comment..."not because of me..." and i finally "got it."
i can chooose to live my personal life in a way that does not only refuse to participate but pay for and reward acts of human extreme brutality to other innocent species.
i am done.
nicole went with me to the grocery store and helped me find good and safe things to eat.i already have a brand i like of not tested on animals soap and shampoo and i am lucky that i happen to like my ugly rubber shoes and boots so no more leather just won't be an issue for me. feeding the saints animals is a big moral conflict and i guess my ethics will have to be fluid in this for now.
last night as i made myself watch that video..... i was truly ashamed to be a member of the human species. our needs, our greeds, our rights and our wants...our thoughtless and careless daily convenience....we are the very real monsters of every animal on earth's worst nightmare....i don't want to be one of their monsters anymore.