she passed very peacefully, i think she was nervous about having to go to the clinic but i don't think she was too afraid. she recognized and trusted renee and me enough to seek us out for reassurence, to slip under my legs or stand quietly for chest rubs from renee.
holly was one of those tough ones who came in far too late for us to really have been able to improve her quality life all that much. having said that, i don't think holly was ready to end her life so many months ago. i just wished she could have ended her life feeling comfortably safe and very well loved in a life long and familar home.
our job became simply to keep her safe, to love her knowing she was no longer able to trust in and feel that love, to provide her with some stabilty (and some really good food which she LOVED!) until she finished her journey to the end of her days.
rest in peace now sweet holly, i wish that i had the chance to love you when you could have known you were deeply loved.