it started with me in a roomful of cockroaches (not here thank god but it still TOTALLY freaked me out cuz those buggers were running in plain, can't pretend to ignore view, everywhere around me....) bad news with halo as we find just how far her cancer has spread and how little time she has left... and i do not want to deal with that right now. next i was helping smokey to pass and finally by the end of the day i was in the walk in clinic because i really felt shitty. the doc said i need to lose weight, eat healthy, quit smoking, delegate more, work less and seriously reduce my stress..my blood pressure had skyrocketed into holy shit realm (200/100..then 195/110..gawd dam frigging cockroaches ruined my whole freaking day!) he immediately started me on a diuretic/antihypertensive which apparently is now probably for life and i am to follow up with my own doctor next week.
honestly this new to-do list just stresses me out even more. plus that med made me get up all night long to pee so i got even less sleep than usual and feel like a sack of shit today. i don't have time to be old and falling apart..i don't have the energy (or the inclination) for major lifestyle changes. i just want a magic new 20 year old body that i can continue to ignore and abuse for a few more years....a much simpler solution for me.
anyway, just so you know, i got my wake up call and i am currently not happy.
ok whining is done, i will work out a new and improved lifestyle plan and just get the hell on with more not so fun (but healthier) living that can withstand armies of free roaming cockroaches during my nursing work day...oh freaking yay.