i remember when her spca cruelty officer brought halo here a few months ago. she was weak, her hind legs sagged to the ground. she was in pain from a crippling hind end arthritis and in agony from a deep, constant burning of having to pee a few drops of bloody urine every five minutes. i remember her entire back end was softly sticky and hard spikey, caked with fresh and dried blood.
she was thin, the rest of her coat was dull, dirty and matted...she was a heartbreaking wreck of a dog.
i can't quite wrap my head around how any human being could bear witness to such obvious suffering and not do anything about it. yes she was old, yes she was arthritic, she had cancer, and yes she was terminal but for god's sake....some antibiotics, some pain meds, good food, a few baths and a brush...a warm and dry and comfortable bed made a world of difference in how she felt.
all she needed was some very basic care..nothing horrendously expensive, nothing too physically strenuous...just a little bit extra tender loving care.
halo came here to die..i knew it the moment i saw her. but i hoped before that happened, she would have a chance to live.
and she did.
we can be successful at saints but we are not heroes. the heroic would have been able to save fletcher and the others..hero's would have had what was so desperately needed. but we are ordinary people who can and do ordinary things and most times that is enough, but not always.
and so sometimes we grieve. i weep inside for fletcher, and watson, and clyde...i have a deep forever hurt for angel and emmit and bear.
but halo, black buddy, al, peluchi, snoopy, marg, bon jovi and all of the hundreds of others who have come here to eventually to die..i have a warm and soft sadness of loss but still a kind of joyful gladness that we were able to soften the heartbreaking hardship of their previously difficult lives.
halo will pass today...and it won't be a passage from filth, neglect, loneliness and terrible pain. she will pass from a loving, caring and comfortable place.
that is what we know how to do well at saints.
thank you chris for saving her...you gave her a life of simple comfort and some happiness and thank you to everyone here hands on caring for her or supporting saints from a distance....halo will forever be grateful for this.