but bear with me for a minute.
ever since the vegan ambush..i have been thinking..i don't mean surface surfing..i mean REALLY deep, dark thinking.
I came up with more questions then I did answers and I am still trying to figure things thru.
the 2 questions that haunt me are...
1. am I a natural born killer?
2. and do I value some biological life forms more than others?
the answer to both of those questions is...yes.
bet you thought I would lie and say the answers were no!
but think about it..i will with great reluctance and regret end the life of someone like fletch. I will feel pretty rotten inside doing rodent population control, but I will still out of necessity do it.
but there are living biological creatures that I have not a single second thought on killing...mosquitoes, fleas, flies, lice, and absolutely any kind of internal parasite...if I could exterminate them all...trust me, in a heartbeat I would.
now you might say well ok...but those are not sentient beings. who says they are not? they are self aware enough to feed when hungry, they are self aware enough to know how and when to reproduce, they are self aware enough to try to survive and to seek opportunities to improve and exploit their living conditions..that is far more than a human in a clinical vegetive state can do.
and I am sorry..i just can't see anyone, vegan or not carefully picking lice off of their 5 yr olds head and setting them loose in the forest. I wonder if the very devote Buddhist monks once hit this conflict of faith and that is why they always shave their heads to this day..to prevent a further conflict in valuing all forms of life.
sorry, I am digressing into the ridiculous..I have no idea what so ever why Buddhist monks shave their heads...I was just thinking that maybe they had a really practical reason.
anyway...does this mean that I do not want to one day grow into a full fledged vegetarian or vegan instead of my current situation of trying to make careful and compassionate choices? no it does not. but there are other things that I think on..like if suddenly at this minute every single human being on this planet discovered the right path and ceased to exploit animals?
what would happen? would 40 million chickens, cows and pigs suddenly have their gates tossed open and allowed to be free? what would happen to the millions and millions dogs and cats who depend on those animals for us to feed them?
could we as humans live with free roaming wild cows, dogs and pigs? well the uncastrated ones could be pretty darn scary! could nature even support the sudden release of domesticated animals to compete for food and resources with the existing wild creatures? or would they so devastate the delicate ecosystem balance that most of them by necessity would have to be killed anyway?
and even if the change begins slowly? is there a place for once domesticated but no longer needed animals? or would they all by necessity have to cease to be?
these are the things I am wondering.
I hear the easy and slick rhetoric..and i understand the dream but.... has anyone ever really sat down and figured out what the attainment of this dream will actually and in reality mean?
I don't want to torture domestic animals..but I don't want them wild, loose and rummaging around my back yard or getting dragged down and eaten by a pack of starving, free, feral dogs or god forbid...cease to exist altogether either.
nature really isn't any kinder than man..nature is just easier for us to understand.
maybe there are those who have the real and right answers to all of this..but I have my doubts. we may all be natural born killers in some way or another, especially if we do not understand the full ramifications of the actions we take.
such a deeply confusing issue..so why does it seem so very easy and simple on the surface?