Gideon says he is done.
the vet will come out over the weekend if he needs some extra help to be comfortable and we will arrange for his euthanization early next week.
he is not in any acute distress but he is finally realizing that 37 years of living is enough for him....continuing is becoming too much of a burden.
it seems like he just woke up this morning and decided he wants to be done.
his eyes have a look I have never seen in them before..i can't explain it but I know what it means.
I want to argue with him..i want to plead with him..not yet..don't give up on wanting to live yet.
but I can't. how long do I want him to go for..38,39, 40 years?
it still won't ever be enough for me because I don't ever want him to leave.
Gideon is my teacher, my mentor, my knight in shining armour..he is the light at the end of the tunnel of all old and discarded horses dreams. eight years ago weak, painful and hungry, he stumbled into my heart and moved right into me.
I need to put a big lid on the tears and the sadness that threaten to overwhelm me. the next couple of days are all about Gideon and meeting his passing in gentle peace and dignity.
don't worry old friend..we are all here for you.