I know you were pissed at me this afternoon...no hello kiss, you turned your nose up at the special treat I brought, you wouldn't even turn your head to look at me. I could see by the way you were sitting that you were totally fed up with vet clinics, ultrasounds, xrays, needles being stuck into your chest and I was to blame. you knew my job on this earth was to keep you happy and safe and you felt I was doing a pretty shitty job of it lately.
I felt so bad to see you so mad and I would do anything to see you happy again.
anyway..i just want to tell you how very much I love you and how much joy you have brought into my life. you brought the very best out of me, the softy, the sappy, the laughter, the joy.
I have never before shared a three way deep love of a dog. jenn was the first you loved, she made every day exciting and fun. ko brought you a mothers love, she carried you when you were tired, she kept you warm and dry when you were wet. and I loved you with all of my heart as my very best friend.
you are probably even more pissed at me once you realized that last injection turned off your life forever. but daphne I did it because I loved you, I couldn't watch you continue to struggle to get enough air in, I couldn't keep abandoning you every week at the vets when I know how much you hated it. i couldn't let you get sicker and sicker when there was not any hope left.
I wanted you to once again be joyful and free and not dreading what each day would bring. i wanted you to be free of the unhappy things that were stealing you away from me.
i just want you to know that i love you baby and today was my final gift of loving to you.
rest in peace sweet, sweet girl, i will forever miss holding you.