it is that I am not cloned into 50 more carol's. whatever my shortcomings, the animals here love me and if I could just make 50 more of myself...as tolerant and accepting of living with the animals own shortcomings..i could take them home by 1's, 2's and 3's and everyone here that I love so well would forever have a great home with me.
its hard knowing that they deserve so much more then me spread around in so many ways. 10 minutes here, 10 minutes there...10 more minutes I should have but didn't have to share. it makes me sad in the evenings as I do the rounds...so happy to see me, so sad as I leave.
it freaking well sucks.
some of them will one day get a great home, but most of them won't.
that is the real heartbreak in rescue..knowing they deserve so very much more and wanting so very much to give it and it just can't be the way we all want it to be.
too many of them and not nearly enough of me.
I love you guys and I'm sorry.