i do not know what to do about pepper. we brought him home yesterday afternoon...the clinic thought that because he perked up when we visited him...he might stay perked up if he was home. well he is not. he will drink but he will not eat, he still will not or cannot stand, he tried to bite dionne and ali and he did bite mo in the face last night while they were trying to comfort him...three of his most favorite people of all. he reminds me of that horse in the horse whisperer...beat to shit and totally traumatized. and i do not know how much of all of this is physical...pain and nerve damage and how much of it is emotional?
it sounded so definitive, so heroic, so right...SAVE HIM.
and we saved him... now what?
my back is so bad this morning that i cannot even bend to fix his bed, or pick him up from the floor that he has crawled to and lay him down in soft dry comfort again.....hopefully the pain meds kick in soon so i can actually bend and help him.
it has only been 4 days since the attack, do i just need to be patient and give his body and soul more time to heal or am i just prolonging the inevitable... should i set him free and let him go?
none of his injuries are actually life threatening and yet his life is threatened because he has been brought down so very low.
this whole thing is just so fucked up and i freaking do not know what to do for him.
biting is nothing new for pepper...he was in the office with the other biting, twisted little ones for a really good reason. but...even tho they are all freaking dick heads, they still all had light and joy inside them (when they were not being demon dickheads.)
for all of them, jazzy, darby and pepper, that light is all gone now and there is just darkness instead.
ahhh pepper...are you going to be able to turn back on your light again?
three lost but much loved little dogs...two now far beyond our reach and while the third is still with us, we cannot reach him.
so utterly fucked up and sad.