ground hog day

rescuers need to learn to navigate around all kinds of pit falls....going over the edge from rescue to neglect or abuse...pissing off pissy kind of people....charging ahead with our head in the happy helium balloon cloud and totally unaware that we are blindly walking in circles. avoiding driving ourselves insane or killing ourselves because of the demands of endlessness of it all.

rescue requires three non negotiable things...

uncompromising insight

uncompromising responsibility

and uncompromising commitment

never lie to others, never lie to the animals and never lie to yourself.

considering what rescue requires, day after day, year after year...

rescuers absolutely have to be willing and able to accept living a life that will never be even close to what was long ago so innocently dreamed.

in the beginning, it is wonderful...

and then reality starts to kick in and that wonderful that we used to feel starts to feel pretty horrible as it defiles our personal needs. that's when we become angry, frustrated, tired and bone weary exhausted..that's when hopelessness and helplessness moves in.

but there is a light at the end of that long and dark tunnel...maybe not so bright of a light as the fairy tale light we saw in the beginning but light just the same.

this is the point that we finally get it...we are here to do what we can, when we can, the best that we can and we can accept this. we have done our double checks, we have survived our hairshirts as we did our post mortums we have looked over our shoulders, we have peeked around all kinds of really scary corners and we may not be perfect but we are fairly ok.

nothing got easier, there is still no end in sight..but we breathe, we take one step at a time to get thru the day, and we are ok with starting all over again with each brand new day....it is what it is, we are ok with it and we are here to stay.